life jd lagi confused.everyday mesti ade bende yg selama ni aku tak pernah taw, aku tahu.huh.ape ni?since aku balek umah.byk bende yg lain skrg.everything different.knp?ape yg jd?utk positif changed tu ok la.but.negative changes lg byk.everyone dh laen.confused*tak phm.bole dikate kn semua org selfish.knp ea?and both my sys and bro dh malas blaja.ntah!tak taw ape yg silap.ibu kdg2 tak tido dlm bilik.why?ok.for some reasons i understand la.but, the incident last night really confusing me!sangatt!ape ni??ada anything happen ke time aku takde kt umah?yg aku taktaw?please.im 18 now!dont act me like im 8 months baby! bole tak?
few minutes ago, ibu just confessed me something.tak taw la mmg die nk ckp ke t'lepas ke ape ke.but now aku makin confused.ibu ckp everything yg angah buat mesti salah kt ayah.bende betul ke, bende tak betul ke.if angah needs something mintak kt ayah.mesti die mrh.aku mintak,semua ayah bg.kdg2 aku tak mintak, ayah still bg.ayah just penuhkn semua keperluan aku.AKU je ke?time ibu ckp,ibu mcm nk ckp yg ayah syg aku lebih dr org lain and ape yg angah buat semua salah.tak kn la sbb ayah marahkn bende yg dulu tuh.dah.dah.la tu.ayah supposedly tak bole mrh.dh itu nasib die.ayah supposedly to support her.bkn condemmed!she is growing.plus, skrg ni angah tu in TEEN world.mesti la nk maen2.and she really need support this time.time2 mcm ni la support sgt penting buat die.just support die if u cant afford anything for her.aku perasan ayah almost 90percent akn condemm everything yg angah involve.actually.u should proud of her taw?dh byk international scouts die join.bangge whatt!!!dah la.dah penat nk fikir.dah tak taw nk buat ape.and now aku dh taw knp angah ckp ayah pilih kasih and syg aku lebih.
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*honestly.im an egoistic person.sangatt ego.and i never cry for family in my 18 years of life.but.not now.
