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Bole takk just terus terang! senang. tak pyh nk keep on mrh.. bebel.. bosan la! saya ni tak suka akan BEBELAN! ( sorry, if sounds rude. but i need to tell the truth ) bosan la life mcm ni. semua bende nk buat, tak boleh. just because of hanya duduk dkt dpn pc. what the *(^%**. it's okay if you have something for me to do. dont expect me can just sit, and do nothing. so silly. stupid. it's enough i dont have many friends here. dont make me feel more burden and bored! everyday, just listen to your nagging.. nagging on nothing. if u're nagging because im doing something worng, it's okay! fine! i deserve it! but. i dont do anything. my life is just WAKE UP. TIDY UP HOME. just that. everyday. the same routines. tak pernah pulak nk merungut. yelahh, i know myself. i know i need to help you. as i can learn how to be a good woman. but. the most thing yg saya tak tahan skrg ialah. knp semua benda yg sy buat di sini, mesti di kongkong? it's enough! im 18 now! i know to take care of myself! (myb u can say im not enough to be  a big girl ) but. it's enough for you to stop me from hangout or lepak2 dgn kwn2. it's just kwn2. i know. u do care bout me. worry about me. as the world now was so fear. but. i realised it too. igtkn dgn cara i told you everything about my friends to you is enough to make you trust me and my friends. rupenye tak! fyi, my friends igt saya ni ank manja taw. just because of i told everything about my life to you. but. it's ok. i dont mind it. because i really hope you trust me. but, it's just a hope! HOPELESS!. so sorry la if i released everything here was like " ee, kurang ajarnye". but. for me. this is the way yg i think suitable for me to release evrything. i dont want to have a fight with you anymore. penat! and menmbh dosa je.